Sierra

this week has been the most strange, dramaful, intresting, worrysome, but suprisingly great week of my life.

there are so many people in town. (emily and jeff being the most important.) some suck, some are great, some make me want to kick their teeth in.

today is my last day of school.

15 days is the rest of my life.

time for another year wasting space and living for myself.

i've done it again. (well we did it to each other.)
fucked up one of the best things i have had in a long time.
why is whiskey so good, but does such bad things.
why do cops fuck everything up?
why do people have to go to the hospital because they passed out?
fuck this city, its ruining things....AGAIN!

So, plans have been falling apart at the seams.. but it seems as though a better one may have just come up. Me, Dan, and Phil ... going. yes, the 3 of us are going to travel together (as of now) what a fucking combonation we will make... im kinda scared that we will be to much for the world outside of st pete. haha. And now i guess im staying untill after xmas, which will make the family happy. oh man, I CANT FUCKING WAIT!

My final projects are due soon for school. It's already the second of November. And December is so close I can taste it. Leaving is going to be better this time, because I know I'm not coming back. Atleast I hope not.

weekend = busy

I have a fucking test on Monday night in my Human Services class...

Pablo is gone... the west took him from us

And I was naked in a cemetary.

The first cold weather of the season, and I am welcoming it with open arms.
I feel the need to grab a few quarties and head to a spot in the woods or near the tracks. Maybe even sitting at the nonexistant benches with a buncha kidos. I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR! It has a very distinct smell that I could never do without.

stolen. and considering the hurricane situation there isn't really much else to do.

WRATH
1. Who did you last get angry with?: My mother
2. What is your weapon of choice?: these guns...
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: Yes
4. How about of the same sex?: Yes
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: I don't really know..
6. What is your pet peeve? the human race
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? Depends

SLOTH
1.What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? um... look for jobs
2.What is the latest you've ever woken up? I have slept all day
3.Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: Lots of people I met while traveling
4.What is the last lame excuse you made? I have no idea
5.Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)? Haha yes.
6.When was the last time you got a good workout in?: Does walking around downtown St. Pete for a few hours count?
7.How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I don't use those annoying pieces of shit

GLUTTONY
1.What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: Jack Daniels
2.Meat eaters: Turkey and Chicken only THANKYOU
3.What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: To much, mulitiple half gallons and 30 bricks
4.Have you ever used a professional diet company?: nope.
5.Do you have an issue with your weight? No, I like my beer belly
6.Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: Spicy and Salty
7.Have you ever looked at a small pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"?: Who hasn't?

LUST
1.How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: ALOT
2.How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: More people than I think I'm sure
3.Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: Who hasn't?
4.Have you "done it"?: Oh heavens NO! hahaha
5.What is your favourite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: stomach.
6.Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: nope
7.Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: yes

GREED
1.How many credit cards do you own?: none
2.What's your guilty pleasure store?: ...Target I guess haha
3.If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: buy lots of drugs and booze <-- good answer puppy and melissa
4.Would you rather be rich or famous?: rich
5.Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: JUST SAY NO TO WORKING!
6.Have you ever stolen anything?: yep
7.How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: Probally in the area of 20-30

PRIDE
1.What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? Stoped being so fucking violent
2.What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?: Started college
3.What's one thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: happiness
4.Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? nope, I don't compete
5.Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? no
6.Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yes
7.What did you do today that you're proud of? Got out of bed

ENVY
1.What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? A school bus
2.Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? no one
3.If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? me only with less problems
4.Have you ever been cheated on?: yes...
5.Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? sure
6.What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? what the hell is an inborn trait? I wish I had some sorta of artistic ability
7.Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?: nope

Well that was fucking fun.

Sitting here alone drinking Yuengling Black and Tan YAY

Gwar was great.

PBR is great.

blah blah blah blah.

shit is very unintresting and boring right now.

Everyone's leaving soon... whatever am I going to do???

Talked to some people that I havent talked to in a while tonight. That was nice. I'm coming to St. Pete tomorrow considering I have to come home Saturday afternoon.
Yep. thats about it.

Oh I have a test in school tomorrow that I didn't study for... im going to fail for sure....

I'm done trying to hold friendships together that people don't want.

I guess I just want things to be back the way they use to be.

But people and situations change and there isn't shit anyone can do about it.

I have realised that this place holds nothing more for me.

I don't think that there is anything left to experience in this place.

It will be hard for me to come back here when I leave in December, maybe I won't.

Maybe I'll find a new place to mess things up in.

Maybe I'll find more people to hate me.

It's worth a shot I sappose.

I had a strange dream about Liz and burritos and whiskey.

it was pretty cool

fucking LAME.....

The kids (Duct tape, Jesse, and chris) bought a school bus Saturday. So I spent the enitre day riding around in a school bus drinking and such. Was fun. Then we ended up in Sarasota sleeping at some random boat dock. was also fun.

I GOT AN ALICE PACK FOR $1.99 TODAY, IT'S WORTH ABOUT $50 I'M A PIMP

and if i drunk dialed you Friday, I'm sorry. i apparently have no respect when i'm drunk.

I really fucking hate my Thursday class. A bunch of dumb people with nothing to say, talking. ERRR! We were talking about how people in Mississippi and Louisiana have lower life expectancy then people in Hawaii. This girl says, "Are Mississippi and Louisiana near Mexico? Because I heard the breathing the air in Mexico City is like smoking a pack of Camels." First of all HOW THE FUCK DO YOU NOT KNOW WHERE LOUISIANA IS???????????????????? Second of all... stop being a dumb fucking bitch. END OF STORY!

Now I also talked to my mom today about the fact that I am not going to go back to school next semester, and she wasn't pissed.... I was baffled. That isn't like my mom. I guess she must be starting to understand me a little more. I do feel much more relieved now that that is out of the way. I thought that was going to be a fight for sure!

I guess I am going to St. Pete tomorrow to hangout with all those crazy kids that live at the apartment I call Duct Tapes. And one of my old middle school buddies. Should be fun. (RACHEL, if you read this you should come and see me this weekend it has been WAY to long! I will call you)


IS IT DECEMBER YET????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Here are some pictures of random the drunken non-sence that is my life.


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I've done this before, but it needed some updating. So here we have it again. I need this map to be completely red soon!

To see a train in your dream, represents conformity and go along with what everyone else is doing. You have the need to do things in an orderly and sequential manner. In particular, if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around.

To dream that you are on a train, is symbolic of your life's journey and suggests that you are on the right track in life and headed for the right direction. Alternatively, you have a tendency to worry needlessly over a situation that will prove to work out in the end.

To see or dream that you are in a train wreck, suggests chaos. The path to goals are not going according to the way you planned it out. Or you may be lacking self-confidence and having doubt in your ability to reach your goals.

To dream that you are the engineer, signifies that you are in complete control of a particular situation in your waking life.

To dream that you miss a train, denotes missed opportunities or nearly escaping your death.




I thought this was intresting. I've had so many dreams about being in train wrecks or missing trains that I later find out have been derailed. But it's not uncommon for certain people to dream of trains... considering.

Saturday night and I'm sitting here bored. I suck at life. Really I do.